So I've been out at my aunt's house all week. Going home Monday. Not really excited. When I get home, I know all I'm going to feel is alone and used. Stupid, ya know? Been thinking about my life a lot lately, and not in the 'Oh, I wish I was dead' way either. Kinda like "What would it be like if I had been born somewhere else?" way, and I realize how much worse off I could be. Yet, still I have the urge to run, and never return home. It's irrational. I mean, I've never felt such a restlessness in my soul, and it eats at me, knowing one day, I'm going to break my mother's heart in two. Though, a song kind of fits my life right now. It's by Lady Antebellum. Called 'I Need You Now'. I'ma post the lyrics, it's really good.
I Need You Now
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind
For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
To me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now
Ooo, baby, I need you now
So yea.. Don't know who I need, but I hope they realize they're who I need.. So stupid of a wish.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
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