OMG An update? Not possible

Alright, so it's been a while. I know, shame on me! I read your blogs Erick, and oh-my-gosh I miss you. I wish I was musically talented like you. Maybe then we'd be closer. Not a lot has been happening with me. I've been sick a lot lately. Also, I've been out at my aunt's house on the weekends, to escape the pregnant nightmare. Jessie hasn't been around so much, so it's not that bad.

Oh, a Ryan update! He's currently at Camp Attaberry, yes the military base. Yes, I'm totally pissed off, but so not telling him yet. My mom and aunt are SLIGHTLY unhappy about our relationship, but they don't say much. I'm not quite certain how to approach him about the military life. I don't want to be a military wife, and always traveling, never being able to settle down. I just don't want that. I also don't want to hold my breath everyday, and wait to see if he's been shot, or being shipped over seas. My mom and aunt don't quite understand, but I won't live like that. I want to be able to put down my roots, open my bookstore, and create a family.

I'm still eventually planning on moving to Moonbeam, Canada. Weird, I know, but it's what I want, so I shall have it. Even if I have to be a hobo to get it. My life is getting way weird lately though. I haven't been eating properly (worry about that later), I appear to have taken up a clean freak attitude, I've been reading more books than I can count! It's just crazy. I don't even feel real half the time anymore. I don't even really talk to people. Maybe I'm just becoming antisocial. Psh, nevermind, I already was.

My dad used to be an alcoholic, but now he's adicated to gambling. He takes his whole pay check to a casino and spends it all, then wants my mom to do the same. I don't think he realizes that we have bills to pay, and people to clothe, and mouth's to feed in our house. He's a complete dumbass and I just don't understand how any one person can be so selfish. I know this is going to sound bad, but I think Jasmine might be as bad as him.

I've been playing with tarot cards recently. Well not exactly playing, but doing readings. It's been forever since I've done it for my mom, but I'm scared to do hers. It's complicated, to say the least. I know a simple 3 cards spread, then I know the English spread, my friend Blaise taught me. So Erick, let me know if you want me to tell you your future.

<3 Much love to you Erick, and anyone else whom may come across and read this. I'll try and update more, Promise!