I've had not so good time this week, but I did get to talk to Ryan and might be going to see him soon!!! He's the sweetest guy I've ever met in my life, and I just love him way too much.. His phone got shut off, so I've been worried sick, but he got on myspace last night (yes, I said myspace! DEAL WITH IT!!) and magically he was on at the same time (Sadly just using his friends computer so we couldn't talk MUCH). I miss him like crazy, and can't stop thinking about him nearly all the damn time. Sometimes I'm a little freaked out about it.. but... not freaked out at the same time.
My cats have decided that I'm their chew toy when I go to sleep at night. Some nights I don't feel it, others I do.. I've been having nightmares like crazy these days. Someones always dying in my dreams. It's kinda scary. I hate it. I hardly ever sleep, because I'm scared I'm going to see someone die, and then when I do sleep, I some how manage to wake up paralyzed with fear and whimpering. The few nights I don't have nightmares, I sleep so heavily that I usually don't hear my alarm clock. I'm thinking I should talk to a doctor about this, because it's really beginning to rack my nerves, but we don't have time for that right now. We don't even have time for me to go to the eye doctor. It's crappy. I'm attempting to look for a job, but with the economy like it is, I wish myself luck everytime I go online or walk up to places. I mean, for some odd reason, God obviously doesn't want me to work. Or he just hates me.. Maybe a little of both.. But yea.. Just wanted to give an update. I'm going to go lay down after getting Zoey off to school. Mucho Grande love for joo all!
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Why really haven't you been in school lately? And OMG! A boy! lol
macimme
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